Discover, horible decision making

I decided to get married.

I decided to go to Iowa.

I decided to get pregnant.

I decided to put my children first.

I decided to stay home and raise my child.

I decided not to work.

I decided not to write.

I decided to love and love and love.

I decided to have another child.

I decided to publish my poems in a book.

I decided to have another child.

I decided to teach at a community college.

I decided to write Rilke on the walls.

I decided to let the grass grow tall.

I decided to open a bookstore.

I decided to stay married.

I decided not to get divorced.

I decided to stay.

I decided to say no to a job I wanted.

I decided to stay with my family.

I decided to write poems about motherhood and war.

I decided to love and love and love.

I decided to keep trying to do better.

I decided I could leave sometimes.

I went to Syria, and Bosnia, Ukraine, and Czechia.

I decided to write more poems.

I decided to teach seven classes in a semester to pay for a child’s boarding school.

I decided to quit my jobs to homeschool my sick child.

I decided to quit my job to homeschool my son who had severe depression.

I decided to work with disabled children part-time for a year.

I decided to make life as beautiful as I could.

I decided to dig up the yard and grow a garden.

I decided to say no and no and no when others insisted I say yes.

I decided to keep my rape a secret.

I decided to tell.

I decided to say no again.

I decided to say no to my husband.

I decided to say no to my children.

I started to say yes to myself.

I decided to say yes to my husband and children, when I shouldnt have, because I wanted to be loved.

I decided to say no again.

I decided to try to take my own life.

I decided to live again.

I decided to keep trying to do my best.

I decided to love.